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I am Drowning by Maxine Mathew

I am Drowning by Maxine Mathew

I am drowning.

I am drowning in failed hopes.

I am drowning in the disappointed faces.

I am drowning in my failure.

I try to rise,

To gasp for breath,

But am pushed down by the onslaught,

Of expectations,

Of disappointments.

 

I am drowning.

I am drowning in my unfulfilled promises.

I am drowning in my failed dreams.

I am drowning in my hopelessness.

I cry for help,

Yet none come forth.

I am overwhelmed,

By the jeering,

By the ruthless mocking.

 

I am drowning.

I look for motivation, but  I find none.

They expect, yet don’t support.

I am drowning in the discouragement.

I am turning back,

I am giving up.

But what is that,

I see a light, a bright shining light.

It seems to be calling to me.

Is it my redemption or just another cruel joke?

 

Yet it calls to me, just me.

I extend my hands towards it.

I can’t touch it yet,

Yet towards it I strive.

It is untouched, unhampered by expectations.

It is my dream.

I was drowning,

But now in my untouched dream,

I have found my redeemer.

Maxine Mathew

Maxine Mathew

Maxine is an undergraduate from Delhi studying her English Honors. She is an aspiring writer who looks forward on writing something one day which would last through ages. She is also a compulsive bibliophile.